If you wanna know my deepest, darkest secrets, just read my tumblr
cwote
Anonymous asked:
I'm so sad. I don't have anyone. I just want to kill myself. Nothing makes it better.
hi. i hope i didn’t get to you too late…
if i’m not, i want you to do a few things for me please. take a deep breath. breathe in through your nose and feel your lungs inflate and the walls of your chest press up to your ribs. swallow saliva that pools in your mouth. feel it drain down your throat. blink slow, feel your delicate eyelids close to protect and moisturize your eyes and then open your eyes. feel how your eyes readjust their focus and dilation to ensure you get optimal light through your retina to register the images of your surroundings. run your fingers gently over your skin, feeling its texture; where it’s smooth, where it’s bumpy, where it’s hairy. step out of your head for a moment to feel who and what you are. when i’m alone, i am comforted by my body. when you have nothing and no one else, you have you and there are a virtually infinite number of pieces that make you, you. all working tirelessly to make sure you’re still here. i know you’re sad right now, but life is such a beautiful thing when you think about it. it has its shitty moments sure, but just the other day i was outside on a crisp morning in early spring and laid in dewy grass. have you done something so simple recently? it’s marvelous. blades of grass have little grooves in them to help guide little drips of water down to the roots so they can grow. it seemed so perfectly designed, but it wasn’t designed. it just was. nobody manufactured it, it’s rough grooves just existed so the little blade could get what it needed to grow. i suppose that could be a metaphor for the rough textures in life like loneliness help us grow by forcing us to learn more about who we are, but i think what would help more than introspection right now is for you to go and explore what life looks like in some of its most natural forms. get your mind off of what’s going on inside you and go connect yourself with the world. marvel in the simple pleasures in life for me. breathe fresh air and take the baby steps. you got this, okay? :)
xoxo,
Cwote